Would you like to work for a big firm or a small one? I’ve been asking myself this question because I know that the answer will solve my problems. I’m still thinking about the offer from company P. At the same time, I’ve completed the online assessments required of me by company O, and big company T’s interview with the hiring manger is next week. I’ve already spoken to my “prospective colleague” at T and all things sound good so far. I’ve also called P for more information about the offer, and after quite a bit of thinking, I think I have an answer to my question.

Anyway company T called and said that they’ll try to get back to me, as to whether or not I’m selected, by the 27th. Told me that the final round of tests is cancelled. I’m definitely glad. So I’m waiting to hear good news. As for company O, the CEO said that the next round of interviews will be on the 30th or 31st.

I hope I’ll be able to reveal where I’m actually headed soon. I want a good job and I want it soon!

I went for an interview yesterday with consulting firm P, and I’m really honoured to receive an offer on the spot. I told them that I will give them a response by the 26th, because I have 2 interviews coming up and I want to be frank with them. And I want to start a job determined, with no regrets. They agreed to wait for me, saying that 2 weeks is nothing if I intend to build my career there. I’m really lucky in that sense. Anyway I’m really flattered when Mr C said that his first impression of me is that I’m really smart. Haha.

So, my strategy is to go for the interviews with the two other companies and see if I get anything else. Unfortunately, I wouldn’t be able to wait for company T to get back to me before I tell company P if I want to accept their offer, because for company T, there’s one final round of interview that will happen after the 26th. If I reject P, it means I’m risking everything, and can only pray that T really wants me. Wherever I go, I hope I’ll love the job and the place.

On a side note, the JB photos are back. I don’t like the angle of the shots and the photographer’s choice of lens and lighting. Makes everyone look ugly and fat! Buay song.

Oh I made H do the MBTI assessment. He’s a ESTJ. My sisters and mum are ISFJs.

The Executive

As an ENTJ, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where youdeal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary modeis internal, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

ENTJs are natural born leaders. They live in a world of possibilities where they see allsorts challenges to be surmounted, and they want to be the ones responsiblefor surmounting them. They have a drive for leadership, which is well-servedby their quickness to grasp complexities, their ability to absorb a largeamount of impersonal information, and their quick and decisive judgments.They are “take charge” people.

ENTJs are very career-focused, and fit into the corporate world quitenaturally. They are constantly scanning their environment for potentialproblems which they can turn into solutions. They generally see thingsfrom a long-range perspective, and are usually successful at identifyingplans to turn problems around – especially problems of a corporate nature.ENTJs are usually successful in the business world, because they are sodriven to leadership. They’re tireless in their efforts on the job, anddriven to visualize where an organization is headed. For these reasons,they are natural corporate leaders.

There is not much room for error in the world of the ENTJ. They dislike tosee mistakes repeated, and have no patience with inefficiency. They maybecome quite harsh when their patience is tried in these respects, becausethey are not naturally tuned in to people’s feelings, and more than likelydon’t believe that they should tailor their judgments in considerationfor people’s feelings. ENTJs, like many types, have difficulty seeing things from outside their own perspective. Unlike other types, ENTJs naturally have little patience with people who do notsee things the same way as the ENTJ.The ENTJ needs to consciously work on recognizing the value of otherpeople’s opinions, as well as the value of being sensitive towardspeople’s feelings. In the absence of this awareness, the ENTJ willbe a forceful, intimidating and overbearing individual. This maybe a real problem for the ENTJ, who may be deprived of important informationand collaboration from others. In their personal world, it can makesome ENTJs overbearing as spouses or parents.

The ENTJ has a tremendous amount of personal power and presence whichwill work for them as a force towards achieving their goals. However,this personal power is also an agent of alienation and self-aggrandizement,which the ENTJ would do well to avoid.

ENTJs are very forceful, decisive individuals. They make decisions quickly, and arequick to verbalize their opinions and decisions to the rest of the world.The ENTJ who has not developed their Intuition will make decisions too hastily, without understanding all of the issues and possible solutions. On the other hand,an ENTJ who has not developed their Thinking side will have difficultyapplying logic to their insights, and will often make poor decisions.In that case, they may have brilliant ideas and insight into situations,but they may have little skill at determining how to act upon their understanding, or their actions may be inconsistent.An ENTJ who has developed in a generallyless than ideal way may become dictatorial and abrasive – intrusively giving orders and direction without a sound reason for doing so, andwithout consideration for the people involved.

Although ENTJs are not naturally tuned into other people’s feelings,these individuals frequently have very strong sentimental streaks.Often these sentiments are very powerful to the ENTJ, although they willlikely hide it from general knowledge, believing the feelings to bea weakness. Because the world of feelings and values is not where theENTJ naturally functions, they may sometimes make value judgments andhold onto submerged emotions which are ill-founded and inappropriate, andwill cause them problems – sometimes rather serious problems.

ENTJs love to interact with people. As Extroverts, they’re energized and stimulated primarily externally.There’s nothing more enjoyable and satisfying to the ENTJ than havinga lively, challenging conversation. They especially respect peoplewho are able to stand up to the ENTJ, and argue persuasively for their pointof view. There aren’t too many people who will do so, however, because theENTJ is a very forceful and dynamic presence who has a tremendous amountof self-confidence and excellent verbal communication skills.Even the most confident individuals may experience moments of self-doubtwhen debating a point with an ENTJ.

ENTJs want their home to be beautiful, well-furnished, and efficiently run. They’re likely to place much emphasis on their children being well-educatedand structured, to desire a congenial and devoted relationship with theirspouse. At home, the ENTJ needs to be in charge as much as he or she does intheir career. The ENTJ is likely best paired with someone who has a strongself-image, who is also a Thinking type. Because the ENTJ is primarilyfocused on their careers, some ENTJs have a problem withbeing constantly absent from home, physically or mentally.

The ENTJ has many gifts which make it possible for them to have a great dealof personal power, if they don’t forget to remain balanced in their lives.The are assertive, innovative, long-range thinkers with an excellent ability to translate theories and possibilities into solid plans of action. Theyare usually tremendously forceful personalities, and have the tools toaccomplish whatever goals they set out for.

I’ve restarted my job hunting efforts and I’m glad to have secured another interview tomorrow. Not really sure what the role involves though. I have a feeling that it’s more like training and development than compared to consulting.

Meanwhile I’m waiting for 2 more interviews, which are scheduled to take place next week and next next week. I want to start my career right! Wish me good luck.

We’re finally done with the two wedding banquets! that’s a cause for celebration. Waiting for the photos to come. I haven’t even seen the photos taken in December. I wonder how long it’s going to take. Heading down to the bridal shop later to return the gowns, and I’ll ask them if I can get all the photos by CNY. It’s been 3 weeks already!

Anyway I just made a small donation to the children’s cancer foundation. It’s hard deciding which cause/charity to donate to, because I don’t have that much money to give away in the first place. Thought I’ll do a good deed to start the year well. I’m also partly motivated/inspired by the documentary about the life of a cancer patient I watched last night. If only the truly loaded and rich people would donate more to charities and show their concern towards the society. I sometimes wonder how much the rich ministers and execs contribute towards these causes in a single year, from their own pockets. Can’t stand people who are rich and selfish or ngiao.

The manicurist at city plaza really adores my new watch. I just sat down and was browsing through the available colours when she made a comment about how nice the watch is and kept looking at it. Then she went on asking about the price, and I said I have no idea cos it’s a gift.

After my lunch, I went back to the same shop cos I thought they didn’t paint one of the nails properly (turned out that the gel actually retracts slightly by itself), and as soon as I stepped in she pulled my left arm over so that she can have a better look at the watch. Then again she asked me how much it costs.

I’m really impressed by the watch. And the brand. How people of all ages and backgrounds know what it is from a distance away. Impressive. But I’m not used to the attention. – - “

It’s the new year! Hope everyone will have their dreams fulfilled this year. I hope I can get a new/nice job to kick-start my career, finally move into my own place at the end of the year, and also stay in-shape and healthy. That’s about all for this year.

I’m going back to jb tomorrow to settle the banquet stuff. Very impromptu. Really don’t trust them to do a good job because they don’t deserve my trust anyway. The wedding coordinator from the venue has not contacted us automatically, we don’t know who’s doing what and when, and the band… proposed to sing ‘niu zai hen mang’ for my wedding. WTF. Bloody hate rubbish service. Hopefully I can sort things all out tomorrow. And I hope I’ll get to see my favourite kid tomorrow! Miss him like crazy!

18 December has finally passed! Less on my mind lately. We’ve returned from KL too. Now it’s time to help out for the banquet in jb next weekend, and to clear other work. I’ve just painted the “guest book” black, and I’m waiting to dust some gold powder/shimmer all over it. Hopefully I can get it done soon.

About the wedding… thankfully it’s a big success. Everything went smoothly, the weather was being kind that day, and the highlight was a hit. It was good to hear from family and friends that the highlight was special and touching, because we put in quite a bit of effort into it. I had this concept, and H had to contact the videographer way before the wedding to convey messages. We had to apply for the music license, I had to type out the lyrics and the exact instructions for the videographer, when to put in what kind of footage etc. At least it’s not gone to waste, because people appreciated the clip. I like the highlight too. Touching.

As for staying over at h’s place, I’m not 100% accustomed yet, but it’s not very bad either. Definitely looking forward to having my own place, because right now I’m kind of stuck in between. I have a home, but not my home. Weird feeling. And I don’t have enough space to put all my belongings under one roof, and my family can’t really visit me either. So i do see it as a messy situation. Hopefully it’ll be temporary. Haven’t worked out the exact finances yet, because I haven’t got a job at the moment. H will probably sell his car, and even if I have to live with bare minimum for daily expenses, I will still move into my own place when I can. The situation now really isn’t ideal. My mum was still nagging about having kids, but seriously, where is the kid going to live? I don’t even have enough space for my clothes. Or a private bathroom. Oh well.

Anyway I have plans to exercise more, but I doubt it’s going to happen anytime soon. Went to the gym yesterday and it’s so packed! People feeling guilty I guess… I hate it when the gym is packed.. and there’s this angmoh who overestimated himself.. took really heavy weights and kept slamming them onto the ground, creating mini earthquakes. And producing loud groaning noises. Annoying. Btw I think i saw the editor or beauty editor of cleo.

(2 days before, to be exact. But I don’t think i’ll have time to blog tomorrow.)

I think I learned a lot from the wedding planning. Some friends are “better” and more “helpful” than the rest. You also get to see who the irresponsible or weird people are. People who make odd requests. People who change their minds every now and then. People who send you a wedding gift even though they can’t make it to the wedding personally. Etc etc. And I think people never forget who’s nice to them and who’s not. So, I’ll remember too.

I’ve been wanting the day to be over asap, but i’m also thinking about how fast time flew by. 25 years of my life gone in an instant. More than 1.5 years since his marriage proposal. A few more weeks to our true wedding anniversary. It’s really unfortunate that our extended family can’t spend more time together too. My cousin came back from canada for instance, but we probably won’t have the chance to speak more than a few words. And even though my grandma has been here for around 2 weeks, I can’t spend more time with her. The wedding (plus the numerous rounds of interviews) has zapped most of my time and energy away. It would really be better if we could all spend more time with each other.

Even my dad is flying here and there all the time. Not easy to spend time with him because he comes back late and I’m about to sleep, or I have to go here or there during the weekends when he’s around. But thankfully I’m not migrating to europe or somewhere with my hubby, so we’ll still be spending a lot of time with my family in future. One reason why I really dislike the traditional chinese customs is precisely because they emphasize on the bride leaving her family and gives weddings a really sad tone. In the older days, wives are only allowed to go back to her parents place once a year, on the second day of chinese new year. I don’t like that bullshit. Seriously. I actually get really annoyed when people want me to follow certain traditions. Things like ‘throwing the fan to the ground when I enter the groom’s car so that my mum can pick it up” irritates me like CRAZY.

Alright.. I should calm down and not think about the negative things. I need a really good break!